WHY WHY WHY WHY

I felt really sad today :/
thou it's early in the morning, i dunno why i felt sad.
Sometimes i wonder how i lose friends?
my actions?
my words?
I really felt sad because im losing friends.
I dun want to lose friends.
I hate to lose friends.

I dunno why, i felt that my friends are distancing away from me.
I did nothing wrong!
OR maybe they dislike the way i was the previous time i met with them.
I really dunno man.

If people really hate me so bad,
why didn't they tell me in the face instead of garnering support from other friends and create a hate club?
I'm really confused.
I'm always on twitter.
I'm like monitoring the timeline all the time.
I see people tweet.
But i really hate it when that person you really cares posted some weird tweets that makes you think that he/she is talking about YOU.
It really hurts.
Especially when you ask them something, all you get is a one or two word answer.
You are not the person that i once knew?!
Who are you?

I don't breakdown that easily, but I will if it comes to friendship.
I hope that girls out there that are my friends, please please please don't misinterpret my kind actions for an act by a CRUSH. I AM JUST YOUR FRIEND.
Also, male friends, please don't say that I AM A FUCKING HONGSTER. Because you guys didn't even talk to me. And I don't know what's on your mind if you don't speak..

I getting more and more irritated..
I will strike when the time is right.
I really you guys back );

Remember those times we had fun together?
Don't distant away from me, friend.

Even if the sky is falling down.

FINALLY SINGLE IN TERMS OF EMOTIONALLY. NO MORE CRUSHES. :)
Welll, Junquan finally finished his work today!
YESH i can finally play with him :)
but cny coming soon, wondering if we can play or not o:
But oh well :)
I got 16 for my o levels
its the raw score,
while 15 after deduction.
I really want to go jc! :)
IF can i wan go serangoon! :D
But i hope i can go :))
Many guys are going innova but i think i will go innova..
coz i heard the teachers are pretty nice ppl and they are willing to spend effort perfecting our studies! :D
Well.. when the results are released, i saw most of they ppl smiling instead of crying. (;
Even thou you did badly, if you con't to persevere, you will find your piece of heaven.
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Hmmmmm... i guess she won't be seeing this but..
here is a short message to my bmf :)
Im really sorry that i kept asking about ur result, it's because i wanted to congratulate you.. even thou i dunno how many points you got... so i kept asking.. But as soon i saw you glaring at me, i somehow understood the situation and walked away.. Even thou you didnt do well, you will always have your friends there to support you! No matter what path you choose to go, jc or poly, I will support you! Maybe i wont see you again until 16th dec ba. Kekeke. All the best to you. Hope to see your face brighter than ever on 16th dec! :)
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Gah suddenly feel like folding "stars". :/
never did before. Maybe i should try rite? ;D

hehehe.

Allright thats all for today! Bye peeps!

TRASHTALKING

HELLO PEOPLE.
IM GOING TO TALK LIKE THIS TODAY.
(CAPS FTW)
WELL.
I'M GETTING MY RESULTS IN ABOUT 4 HOURS TIME!
WOOOTS.
WELL, THAT DOESN'T MEAN MY STUDIES HAVE ENDED.
MY DAD TOLD  ME THIS DURING BREAKFAST JUST NOW.
"I WANT YOU TO CONTINUE YOUR STUDIES NO MATTER WHAT, POLY OR JC
(WHY YOU NO ITE?).
NO GIRLFRIENDS.
I WANT YOU TO BE LIKE MY THRID BROTHER'S SONS.
(WHERE THEY GET INTO UNI, ONE STUDYING LAW NOW, THE OTHER STUDYING PHYSICS AND GRADUATING THIS YEAR.)"
I WAS PRETTY TOUCHED BY THE FACT THAT MY DAD REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON ME.
<3
WELL TIME TO GO OFF NOW :)
WISH ME LUCKS AND ALL THE BEST TO MY FELLOW CLASSMATES IN THE SAME COHORT AS ME.
THANK YOU BROTHERS AND SISTERS FOR BEING IN THE SAME COHORT AS ME.
LURVYA!

She really means a lot to me, even if she despise me.

I really like the way you talk to me.
Cool and casual.
Maybe i should find back the one you and me once knew and was long forgotten.
Don't worry, he will be back on Monday.
As for me, he put me in a corner to watch.
Watch how this "thing" works,
With respect.
With care.
He'll be back.
He will be there when you need him to.
He knows.

Can you understand me.. You can't even do that.. Never will you once listen to me.. That you always wanted me to be.. Him, where.. I dun even know who he is.. And where is he from..

She could be that one. The one i always wanted but wishes are what they are.
A space could be a change to something new.
A space could give us a possibility.
A space is the distance between our hearts.
A space where we once belong is gone for long.

I really need time to figure this out.

Can't do this.

Hello people.
Well its the day after xmas!
I did nothing at all
except i had a mni gathering with some friends of mine at the eve of xmas :)
I didnt really talk much since others all having great time.
I really nervous for my results srsly..
I can't say much already, or my emotions will splash this whole post.
Forever a loner.
Peace out.

我不要成为你的柯騰，你也别成为我的佳宜

Hello everybody(nobody)!

Well it has been a lot of days you guys hear from me. Well lets talk about the hottest event every year The MAMA. Its called the Mnet Asia Music Awards fyi. :) Well its was the B-E-S-T. LOLLL quoted from Im the best by CL. She is one of the kpop artists that i classify them as the gems. As they area rare. :) CL is not only just a korean singer, she collaborate with American singers too like the Black Eyed Peas. She and her gang, 2ne1 has brought k.wave to a whole new level, more like a tsunami then just a wave i'll say. Then after the MAMA, a singapore editor "attacked" DBSK(disbanded) via her piece published on Life! section for the Saturday Strait times. This attracted a number of people "fight back" and posted comments that contain a strong stench of sarcasm. Well, she asked for it. Kwave is spreaded worldwide. Haters gonna hate. Furthermore, most of the k.artists have fans behind them, and they grow rapidly. Not to forget my bias in 2ne1 MINKKI!! :DD Personally i feel that she is too cute with her cool hairstyle and dyed blue  :3 She got what we always call the swag when she starts to dance to the beat on the music. Great dancer. She loves chopper from one piece, so as i do, but i dun watch one piece ._. However, i watched a new anime called Beelzebub. I was recommended by yanzhang hehe! :D It's a totally cool anime from the start till now, currently its stuck at episode 46 D: I expected more but they upload once every week. What a pity. I losing interest in everything lately. Blackshot? No. Maple? NO. I feel alone at home when im not. I miss those faces i used to see.. They are great friends. Miss ya'!!

Went to camp germerinsdovn
i dunno how to write la ^
hehe ^^"
It was the fun that captivated me.
We played games together and gazed the moon as it turns blood-red.
The stars appeared one by one as the moon darkens.
The funny part.
THERE WILL BE METEOR SHOWER TONIGHT
but end up, we were stuck in a heavy rain along the beach early in the morning.
my umbrella BROKE.
i mean seriously, the metal structure broke.
imagine the wind speed we were facing back then.
Wind dun caress, they hurl at you.
im tried. ill end here.

Listening to music is just so sad. That's why it feeds this pitiful worn-out soul of me.

Be my lady.

Life maybe full of tears, why no put a smile to it? :)

Hello.

i know, no one will be reading this as i dun publicize my blog frequently...

but well, after exams and grad night, i start to worry about my results.

I wonder if i fail my o lvls, should i retake or not.

I know, if i really fail, i will retake for sure.

but im worried about the eyes of the public.

I will be discriminated and classified as a failure in this cruel society.

In thi society, there is no where you can breathe.

When you could, either you have finished your major examinations, like me, or you finished all your work.

After my O levels,

i started my addiction for gaming again.

before my last paper, i even went to AFA (AnimeFestivalAsia), and had lots of fun when my friends.

Koped free stuffs like aunties do..

I think i fell for her.

But for such person like me, i guess i merely just made use of her presence to forget about her.

Anw, bought a cute fleece hat.

Coming back to present, i just came back home from Darryl's house.

his house dam ulu sia.

then at night, the staircase like haunted house liddat..

damn scary.

After watching Transformers:Dark of the Moon,

i went to watch Darren, Huai Long, Zhuang Peng and Darrly play mahjong.

In the morning(ard 10 plus), i played 2 rounds and won $7.60.

AWESOME :)

I guess Lady luck passed by when i was playing.

V tired sia. TON-ed from 12am to 6 am liddat. GONGGONG liaos when sun rise.

i crept to the bed and sleep until 9 plus.. :D

Thanks Darryl and his mum for letting us stay in his home sia :D

*BOWS*

Sometimes i hate myself for being so ass.

When i become too friendly with a girl, i can't differentiate between friends and lovers.

Hate this weakness.

Sometimes i wonder, is there really a girl for me?

Maybe when im more older.